anxiety

About the future. Where will I end up? I am supposed to start searching for jobs or internships. But were to start when you do not know where you want to end up?

And this summer I would just love to relax and travel. Of course to travel you need money.

share the joy

My own style of Paella for dinner.

A piece of chocolate for dessert. I did not share it.

errors everywhere

A really long day in school. Struggling with all the data for the thesis. Actually it is not that boring, it is things that I like doing, working with Excel and sorting things out. But it is frustrating when it does not work out in the end because you were sloppy in the beginning. Then you just have to look through all your data to find where you made a mistake. Hopefully you find it quickly. You try it out again, only to discover that the mistake you made turned out to be a few more. It is just to start over again and search for the errors. This is what plan for tomorrow is.

studying 9 to 5, what a way to make a living

Sitting in school everyday, all the day. But it feels quite good to get into a routine of waking up rather early and going to bed at a decent hour. The thesis is progressing slowly. There are many things to think about and the collecting of data take some time. My topic will be about institutional differences in the world and either how that affects trade, or how trade affects the institutions. Anyway, something that has to do with institutions and trade. I am happy with the topic, well at least at this moment. Later, however, I am sure there will be ups and downs regarding the topic I have picked. There always is.

start shooting!

Just watched the last episodes of Grey's Anatomy.
And I want more!
Luckily the WGA strike is over and they can start producing all the TV series again. What would our lives be without them? I cannot imagine.

full moon

tonight

No Singstar and therefore no Kåren. Maybe next week.
Instead I had kebab pizza and watched Americas Next Top Model.

smooth

and yummy!

With banana, raspberries, and yogurt.

"People demand freedom of speech as a compensation for the freedom of thought which they seldom use."

Søren Kierkegaard

everyday luxury

What a great evening. This evening was all about enjoying the everyday luxury. Cooking together and just relaxing. Having a glass of wine. Eating chocolate cake for dessert. Drinking tea. Watching a movie. Enjoying each others company. All those small things that makes a normal boring day so much better.

My ex-roomie and I did some cooking together. Tonight it was time to make some pad thai. Delicious. It always tastes to much better when you have someone to cook and eat it with. The first time I had pad thai was on Christmas Eve 2006 in Singapore, when my ex-roomie was in fact my roomie. So of course there was some walking down memory lane.

A perfect evening and a great start of the weekend.

uneasy sunday

A strange day today. I think my thoughts are all stirred up and I cannot really relax and have a nice calm Sunday. It probably has to do with my master thesis and that I need to choose a topic. Since it did not go that well with my bachelor I really want to do a good job on this one. I also know how important it is to get an early start. Just have to try to not get all worked up.
That is why I continued on my drawing again and that usually gets me calmed down. I think I need to keep my mind busy on something else, make some lunch and do some reading. Tonight I might pick up the thought process about the topic.

reading

Tomorrow there's no lecture. Which means I can sleep in after a couple of days with early starts. Last night I went to bed quite early, but got caught with the book I am reading and did not get many hours of sleep in the end. A book by Anna Gavalda, Tillsammans är man mindre ensam (or in English: Hunting and gathering). Really great book.

hipp hipp hurra

Congratulations sister on your 18th birthday! All the best to you! Love you.

"You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future"

my degree is slowly approaching

After the successful revival of Huset it was a quite relaxed weekend. Surprisingly I looked forward to Monday since I was scheduled to have my opposition on another bachelor thesis. It felt good to get it over and done with. Now I only have the presentation of my own thesis left to actually get a grade reported. To actually get my bachelor degree. I do not really give it a lot of thought, but it feels strange when many are celebrating their bachelor degree when I am not even finished yet. Even though I started with the thesis a long time ago and been finished - or near the end - for a long time. On the other hand it does not really feel like an end since I am doing another semester to write my master thesis.

I had to let it go this time, but usually I have difficulties starting on something new when I am not finished with the previous task. This is the situation I am in and cannot really do anything about it right now. At least that is one good thing, I can let it go without dwelling on it.

revival

Tonight there was a revival at Huset. It was actually fun. I guess I didn't expect anything since the last time we went there it was a catastrophe. It was just a disaster. Maybe that's why it was good tonight, we didn't have any high expectations. And of course we ended up at McDonalds after. Just like the good old days. And the days in Helsinki after partying hard. But in Helsinki I always got into bed after five in the morning. I think tonight it will be late as well, since I got stuck chatting on msn to my old dear Frenchy in Helsinki that also came home from partying. Should go back and visit him.

But now I should go and clean my face from all the makeup and go to bed and get some sleep. Just have to say good night to Frenchy.